ambivalence

sometimes i hate you
sometimes i love you
but most of the time
i am ambivalent for you.

sometimes i'm happy
sometimes i'm sad
i chose the right emotions
but still i can't find out

at times i'm feeling high
there are moments i'm feeling low.
i tried to neutralize myself
until i developed manic-depression.

i wanted to see you
but i remember i don't like to.
torn in between,
i tried to fix myself together.

i love you
i hate you
but most of the time
i am ambivalent for you.

(pero flat affet habang sinusulat ang tula)